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Wow..the last time I made a journal was in January lol D:

I know it's been....like forever since I've been online to talk to most of you, specifically msn (considering those people I've stayed in  contact with using it)

But getting to the point...I haven't forgotten about most of you. Truthfully ever since my high school transfer I've been really tied up with school and IRL situations lately, and just haven't found it in me to return from my absence on msn...
I don't know if most of you probably remember, but the last time I've been on was a few weeks ago to say hello, otherwise it's been since the summer which is when i've last had a lasting conversation with any of you.
Life has been pretty different lately, and a lot of changes have occured. Most of them are good in a way, yet distracting from my goals when it comes to my art work. I've been a little sluggish with improvement and production lately...blargh.
Aside from my rantings, I'm on spring break now, which I will probably spend with friends and/or finishing some art and projects. Yet I've lost a lot of motivation due to school work and other distractions, I'll try my best to keep up with stuff on here. I hope /some/ of you don't think im a jerk or anything for dying on msn DX

Hope you all are doing well~ and no im not still christmas spirited lol

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Jan 12th, 2010

gonna be 16 soon But I haven't decided my plans for a sweet 16!

I didnt ask for much with anything this year so far....except im begging my friend for a venus fly trap xD That's like all I want for a present! lmao

I'll prolly just chill with friends after school or something ); and maybe have a party on the weekend

lol i suck

Wow, I can't believe today is already christmas eve<3 It came so fast oggggggg

I didn't ask for a lot this time, mainly cause Christmas wasn't my main focus. I don't even think I'm getting a lot, but that's okay (is used to it by now) I just hope it's some type of art supply...

But this year is a little different, cause there's this one special someone that's my real Christmas gift<3333

Anyway. I have to head to my grandma's in about an hour for Christmas dinner. I wish all of you a happy holiday, and I hope all that you've been wishing for this Christmas comes true, cause so far one thing  has for me<3333

*Also, I will be illustrating a Christmas picture, but it won't be done on christmas day. I'm gonna be occupied for the holiday, so it'll be made sometime over the break :3

Now, I need to go buy a santa hat....lol damn I didnt do any shopping 0.0

Ello everyone D: Baw my epic coffee journal skin is gone.
Yeah, I know I've been pretty dead activity wise on this site...I really need to get it together. I guess my lack of motivation is preventing me from commenting/faving like I used to, maybe it's just school.
I guess I'm not the same person like I used to be. I changed a bit...probably for the worst but it's bound to happen anyway. I mean my school is so epic...yet it makes me lazy 0.o I don't know why or how, maybe just the advantage of being in an art school makes us not care about our outcomes...If you get what I mean. I've been slacking off a lot on bascially everything...Art, school work, projects, etc. *Slaps self*

Anyway, next week is christmas! I wanted to do some secret santas with people, not sure if I have the time. It honestly doesn't feel like christmas to me this year. I miss that holiday feeling I used to get when I was a kid. Now, everything in my life just sidetracks me from having fun on the holidayys (been having too much fun in school to think about holidays)But i want it to feel like christmas again...Not sure how I'll do it, there's so little time.

Well I'll try to get a holiday pic done, along with catching up with all of my recent schoolwork...Got a shitload of projects to do. Liek a lot a lot of projects. But the bad news is my photoshop won't work DDD: It just freezes/stops responding halfway through loading up the program..I'm really worried ;___; That I'll have to reinstall it, at the least. But that takes a lot of time.

Oh yeah, I decided that I'm redoing the first few pages for OTG. I haven't forgot about my comic (It WAS the most important thing ever to me until I began slacking) And I think I can make it better than it could be. I'm sorry for the excuses/delay with it, but I feel this is my only choice at the moment. It takes a load of patience, but I'm looking to do m best here...FML;; It's for the best if I brush on my anatomy and style. I have a..HUGEHUGE art block....seriously cant draw anything...tried a load of times ;;

Hmmm...What else...

Well I guess that's it besides apologizing to everyone for not speaking to you. I barely touch msn now (cause im addicted to FB and chat with everyone on there) So if you have a facebook page  let me know! I'll be glad to add you.
I have aim too...been on that a lot as well.

and facebook ohgod so addicting...I need more art done D:


Now....How am I going to convince my dad to let me hang out with friends for someone's birthday?That paranoid----- this is gonna get bad...